Words and Feeling all mixed up

im lost of words

im emotionally all mixed up

my feeling doesnt really matter anymore

its just another fucked up angry little feeling that I have

what i need now, is to go for a holiday

travel all alone by myself

without people telling me what to do

without eating my head out with stupid fucking orders

without seeing anyone i know but at the same time meeting lots of different people and making lots friends

there is a problem though, the sem just started and im talking bout holidays. I guess all that can only be done during the end of my sem. Where do I want to go????
Sabah is in my mind and im looking forwards to seeing the big beautiful Mt Kinabalu, seeing different people from different background and having a chat while drinking a cup of tea in a long house

LIFE IS ?????

life is really unpredictable

just when it seems you have everything under control it turns around and hits you like a brick reminding you that not everything is predictable, but no matter how many bricks that hits you, one should never surrender to life,

LIFE IS.......

there to remind you

to love you and hate you at the same time

to make you sad

to make you happy

boring, fun, interesting and etc etc etc

we should always express our self, you never know if tommorrow never comes

and there you will be thinking about your regrets on things that you should have said, on things that matters most to you

one should never be silent about his life, like Martin Luther King once said " our lives begin to end the day we become silent on things that matter"

And the dreams goes on N on

Lately I have been having some really weird dreams. All of this dreams seems to be coming up at the me every other day. So the dream goes on like this..... In the aftermath of L***** bombings i was appointed by MI6 as a special agent. HAHA. Special agent???? ya serious shit...something like james bond.

Anyway getting back to the story, I was given a mission and clear objectives and that is to penetrate and get reliable information to crack open an international terrorist operation. They wanted to appoint a person who could mix up relatively easy and get lost amongst the crowd, a spy to be exact.

So i took up the position and with great determination, i went ahead with the mission. I was given a new identity and got into the targeted nation ( I really wouldn't wanna say which country is that, you guys should be able to guess yourself ). I travelled excessively throughout the country in search of reliable information to achieve may objectives. Here comes the shitty part, the dream just concluded itself like a movie with a bad ending.

I wanted much more but anyhow this is how it ended, I went to a place that had huge terrorist camps and people willing to die at any single moment. I reported back to my superiors and they bombed the shit out of the place. Looking back at it, it seems rather cool to be a spy agent a little something of Brad Pitt in Spy Game and Daniel Craig in James Bond. What would I be called???? i couldn't think of it myself.....hopefully ill get a name in the next dream

Stupid Stupid Mail

so i have a problem with my hotmail account. This started a couple of months back when i accidentally open an e-mail sent by an unknown person. So since that time until now, apparently i have been sending e-mails to others without me knowing about it at all. I am getting sick and tired of this scam which has been going on for quite some time now and it's seriously getting on my nerves.

I have been sending e-mails to hotmail to help me out with this problem but apparently my e-mails i have fallen to deaf fucking ears. Every single day when i log into my msn there appears those sickening, boring, odd looking and totally ugly words " delivery status notification (Failure),postmaster@mail.hotmail". For fuck sake stop it now, its boring and stupid.

Apparently i sell some computer stuff, haha, if i really did that than i guess i would be rich rite....and i wouldnt be writing this. So guys if you have received any of those mails which claim that i sell computer stuff and all, that is so not true and sorry for the trouble. If any of you guys can help me out with it I would really appreciate it and buy you guys a beer, cheers mate

Aint no Sunshine When She's gone

so you finally left and im sure gonna miss you,

guess what???? i found a song bout that

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone

It's not warm when she's away

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone

and she's always gone too long

anytime she goes away

Wonder this time where she's gone

wonder if she's gone to stay

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone

and this house just ain't no home

anytime she goes away

And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,

I know, I know, I know

Hey, I ought to leave the young thing alone,

but ain't no sunshine when she's gone,

ain't no sunshine when she's gone,

only darkness everyday.

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone,

and this house ain't no home,

anytime she goes away,

Anytime she goes away

Anytime she goes away

Anytime she goes away

Anytime she goes away

come back soon, make sure you don't bring along an accent when you get back!!!!!

ADIOS RONALDO

so as we all know CR7 or ronaldo is finally leaving. Many people are sad to see him go, but guess what im one of the very few United fans that thinks and feels the opposite. See it was about time for this young spoiled brat to go. He thinks his too good for United, and there is never a player bigger than united. Look what happen to Beckham, Van Nisterooy and etc.....

United is more than just a football club. Its history, its culture, its tradition says more than a footballer itself. And this spoil young whissy Portuguese kid who cries a lot, thinks his way too good for them??? It is without doubt that he is the best footballer in the world but it was certainly a wright move for united to cash in on him. Freaking 80 million pounds is a lot of money. With that we can certainly see a couple of stars arriving in Old Trafford.

Would really love to see Scarface and Benzema. Since Ronaldo has helped the Red Devils to 3 league titles, we as the fans should really thank him and wish him all the best. Well personally i would love to say congratulations on your move to Madrid, hope you cry more there and flood the Bernabeu with your tears,

ADIOS AMIGO

Holidays and Holidays and Holidays

my holidays is treating me really well......

well i went to perhentian so it cant be bad in anyway. Perhentian was really good, will update about that later on, once i get all the pics and stuff. Apart from that the other days are basically spent playing hockey, futsall and hitting the gym. I really do hope to lose a few pounds before the end of the holidays

wanted to watch terminator, i got jacked for that movie. But its ok, guess i should have known that was gonna happen, was fool in thinking the other way around.....

tomorrow is gonna be another hot silly day....and the same old routine continues day after day...but i enjoy it and it seems to be a lot of fun hanging out with old friends and making jokes and laughing all day

holidays i love you so much, can you by any chance be longer than 2 weeks ???????

Beer Oh My Darling Beer

Beer oh my dear beer.......

how can i live without you

you see, you and me we are match made in heaven

I find you when i feel sad.....you make me happy....

and when im happy, you make me super happy.....

Beer ohhh beer......

Please dont tell mom and dad about us

You see this people dont understand our relationship....

its more than complicated

something only you and me can understand

Beer Ohhh my darling beer....

im gonna leave you for a few days

hope you dont miss me too much...

im gonna pay a visit to your friend called MR Black

dont get jealous....

ill always come back to you

ohh my sweet beer... i love you

After Party

too much of partying and drinking = hangover

should not have drank so much.....blablabla

whatever.... i dont give a fuck

im having my holidays

so im gonna drink all i want

and to perhentian here i come